Somewhere Between Success and Failure

Definition of Success
The achievement of something desired, planned, or attempted

Definition of Failure
The condition or fact of not achieving the desired end or ends

Alternate Definition of Failure
Stopping or Qutting before succeeding


What is it called when you struggle to continue to do the things you should but you don't believe you will succeed?

I have been doing a LOT of soul searching, trying to figure why I have been struggling so much doing the things I need/should be doing
Why have I been struggling eating properly?
Why have I been struggling getting the house cleaned up and nice?
Why have I been struggling at the gym getting in shape and losing the extra fat?
Why have I been struggling with depression?

Last night, while stretching out my shoulder and contemplating a rune spread I had done about my inability to get out of this hole, I had a thought come clear
I don't believe I can succeed right now
I don't KNOW that I can succeed
I can't envision myself successful

I don't know how to fix it
I struggle with motivating myself but if I don't believe, I am just going thru the motions
I have problems celebrating good things that I do or that happen

I just don't know right now