Currently I am an athlete in training.
I have been fit at times and fat most of the time.
I had a Duodenal Switch weight loss surgery to help me.
I used to have diabetes, high blood pressure, high triglycerides and low HDL.
2018 - Year of Health
2019 - Year of Regrowth
2020 - Year of Accomplishment (postponed for Covid)
2021 - Year of Goals
This is my way of helping keep me accountable
This is the journey of one fat guy to health.
2012-11-15
Thanks
Today I had my regular appointment at the VA
My control numbers were actually good
Improved in some and level in others
Weight went up tho
Talked to "My" nutritionalist
Heidi was the person in charge of stuff when I went thru a weight loss clinic at the VA years ago
In the last couple years we have been talking when I was up at the VA
She is the one that helped me with getting the BodPod
I was talking to her about what was in my post that I just put out
That I had written it a while ago but never published it
I was telling her how I was feeling like I was in a car, going down hill towards a cliff and saying to myself "Hit the Brakes" and then just not doing anything
How I knew I was eating too much or wrong things
How I could tell myself I needed to do something and then just sit there not doing it
In the last couple months I have been dealing with injuries, work stress, personal stress with money/house/car
As we were talking, I started to realize, food was my comfort blanket when I didn't have anything else
I need to replace that food addiction/comfort blanket with something
I also need to feel like I am making progress and not helpless
What I started to see is that when I could work out, and by workout, I mean using emotion in working out
I did better at doing the right things
I had much lower stress if I could burn out frustration during lifting or working out
Just lifting with no emotion didn't do nearly as much for me
I got a lot of help doing my blacksmithing for much the same reason
It was strenuous but I also accomplished something when smithing
I made something
In the past, I used smoking at times to help with stress
I knew it was a psychological crutch
I did it intentionally and it helped at the time
I won't do that anymore so it seems I am using food to replace that in dealing when I get too much stress
2 things I need
I have to find some way to relieve stress when I am physically unable to do it due to schedule/sickness/injury
I have to find some way to break free of the 3rd party viewing of myself going over the cliff and make myself do something about it
Help appreciated
Thanks Heidi for spending part of your day/lunch talking to me
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